I Am Weak

I am a created being.  I need to eat, drink, sleep, and breathe.  If I stop doing any of those things I will weaken and die.  When I fast I remind myself that my creator does not have any needs.  He is perpetually sustained by the power of His own inexhaustible life.  When I fast I am reminded of words from “Jesus Loves Me.”  “Little ones to Him belong, they are weak but He is strong.”  When I fast I must trust Him, moment by moment throughout the day, to sustain me and give me the physical strength to do my job and complete the activities of my day.  This is just a variation on what I should be doing consciously, moment by moment throughout my non-fasting days:  trusting God for the spiritual strength I need so that I can live for the praise of His glory.

Borken Compas

There is something inside of me that turns away from God just as naturally and persistently as a compass set to point to the South Pole.  As long as my conscious mind is in control, the needle can point straight at my true north, which is God Almighty; but the second my conscious mind relaxes the needle points south again to self and sin.

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Few things can be as important as grasping the nature of Satan's rebellion and how that relates to sin and temptation. Satan represents himself as the Ring Master in the circus of sin. His whole sales pitch is based on pleasure. "Come on in here, this is where the fun is."

This is one great big lie. Satan has no pleasure to offer you. Zip. Zero. Nada. None. This is because God is the God of pleasure, the God of joy. God had all the fun/joy/pleasure staked out before Satan rebelled. Satan can't create anything new, so all he can do is pervert a pleasure God has already created and offer it to gullible humans.

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The darkness is the exact opposite of the light. The light is reason, sanity, love, and joy. The darkness is irrationality, insanity, hatred, and despair. Everything about the darkness is a lie. Dishonesty is at the very heart of the darkness. The heart of God is truth and love. The heart of the darkness is lies and murder. If this information seems abstract and unimportant to you, that is a sign of how far you have yet to journey on the road to moral sanity. You must not only learn to hate the sin toy, you must learn to hate the very essence of sin.

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A sin toy is not just a toy -- it is a tool of the enemy. The more I play with it, the more power he has in my life. I am not willing to surrender myself to morally crippled, fiendishly twisted fallen angels who hate me with a hatred that is just as pure as the love with which my heavenly Father loves me. I will not be a slave to sin; I am a servant of the Lord.

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If living with an internal civil war between the spirit and the flesh wasn't enough, their are two powers that exist apart from me. With every decision I make I strengthen my connection either to God or the evil one. My decisions give one more authority and access to operate within me, and the other less.

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We all live with an ongoing, internal civil war. The desires of the spirit and the flesh are in opposition to one another. With every decision you make you feed and energize the one, and starve and weaken the other.

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We don't have to wait until we die to begin the journey toward moral sanity. Through hours and hours dedicated to meditation and prayer we can begin to change now. We can be transformed by the renewing of our minds.

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The day will come when you will see clearly. When you escape from the effects of inborn sin when you die, you will experience a mental revolution that will utterly transform you. You will look at that sin toy that you now love, and you will utterly abhor it. You would be no more inclined to do that sin than you would be inclined to take a nice, refreshing swim in a pool of fresh vomit.

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If you love a sin, to that extent you are morally insane. The only reason you have survived without being institutionalized is because the whole world is a mad house. They would not suffer a person such as yourself to wander the streets of heaven unsupervised. You need your meds. You must take your meds.

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Some of the homeless people wandering our streets are homeless for one reason, and one reason alone: they will not accept the fact that they have to take their meds. We have a disease that in this life knows no final cure: inborn sin. Meditation on the word and prayer are our meds. We have to come to the point where we realize that something is very, very wrong with us. We have to take our meds every day or suffer the effects of moral insanity. We should be too afraid not to take our meds.

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I had my first serious bout with seasonal depression in 1976. I didn't know what it was. There were no medications for it. So I did the only thing I knew how to do. I could feel the flow of the God life that came to me through meditation on the written word and prayer, so for the next two years I never missed a single quiet time. I was afraid of what was happening to me, and I was worried that if it got worse, I might have to be institutionalized. Fear became my friend, motivating me to do what was right.

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Earlier in this thread I said that we are still spiritual infants until we have come to the place where we have looked inside ourselves and seen something absolutely horrifying. Let's ad to that. We must come to the place where we look at Rev. 3:17 and we say to ourselves, "I am that man! I don't feel it! I wasn't aware of it! But the Holy Spirit is showing me that this is so."

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When we neglect meditation and prayer we become the spiritual equivalent of schizophrenic man who refuses to accept his condition and take his meds. We become the spiritual equivalent of ragged, delusional, and homeless. The disease of sin affects our minds to such and extent that we do not even realize our true condition.

"You say, 'I am rich. I have everything I want. I don't need a thing.!'"

"And you don't realize that you are miserable and poor and blind and naked."

Rev. 3:17 NLT

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You must take every opportunity to empower the light within you. You must feed your spirit by meditating on truth while you breath deeply with the breath of prayer. Every moment spent in this way strengthens the light and weakens the beast.

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When you do what the sin nature wants you to do you feed and energize the beast. You can only find peace as you starve it. Cut if off from every source of nourishment. Reduce it to a pitiful, weak thing. But never take your eyes off of it. Never let it revive, for if you will, it will dominate your life once again.

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It will not compromise; it will not rest until it poisons and infects every part of your being. It can not be reformed or redeemed. It will be with you until the day you die. You must remain vigilant and armed for battle at all times. You must be strong in the Lord and in the power of His might. You can only find peace as you starve the beast. Cut if off from every source of nourishment. Reduce it to a pitiful, weak thing. But never take your eyes off of it. Never let it revive, for if you will, it will dominate your life once again.

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This thing hates God. It does not love, or even care about your wife and children. It is completely unmoved by the post death screams of those being dragged down into hell. It loves filth. It sees excrement and coos with delight, gathering it up in it’s arms as one would some beautiful treasure.

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It is absolutely essential that we allow God to heal our minds so that we can finally see the sin nature for what it is. We are still spiritual infants until we have come to the place where we have looked inside ourselves and seen something absolutely horrifying.

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A civil war is raging within me. Part of me wants to submit to and flow in harmony with the light. Part of me wants to believe the lie of independence that always results in submission to and harmony with the darkness.